Bandoned (comms closed)

So being away for so long made me realize what it is that actually makes animating fun for me, or rather, I learned what kills my enjoyment of any creative endeavour. See, I got into the habit of cranking out an animation once a week with a tight schedule for the sake of my patreon page a long, long time ago. I felt obligated, because people paid me for my work, and instead of deriving enjoyment or achievement from that, I felt a sense of dread and suffocation. Instead of trying new things I just stuck with doing what worked because I could create it in a short enough timeframe and I was reasonably sure people would like it. At the same time I was mortified of looking at other artists, because, in my mind, they were so much better than me and were growing all the time, while I was stuck doing the same thing over and over again without a spark of joy to be had. Now, to be perfectly clear, this was, all of it, inside of my head. I think I've gotten one negative comment, in like 5 years. Nobody ever told me they'd stop following or supporting me if I tried different things, or experimented, or moved away from familiar kinks or futas or whatever, but I let the numbers get to me. Big line must go up forever. Still, Animating became a job instead of a creative outlet that brought me joy. So last week I started animating something again because I felt like it (and got my gpu working again), and it just felt, and still feels, fun. I'm tinkering with poses, lighting, seeing what works and what doesn't and it's good. I'm doing it again because it's what I want to be doing, selfish as that sounds, I suppose. I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say with this ted talk, but I think what I mean is the lesson is that animating giant cocks is fun again. Weee.

I'm replaying Sonic Adventure 2 and I'm likely going to make it everyone's problem by animating some furry abomination featuring Rouge the bat. https://t.co/q0rUjjQPqE

I'm kind of torn between shitting out short form loops or trying something longer. Maybe I should learn to animate again first lmao https://t.co/k6GSegKj3Z

Kind of wild some of my janky animations have over a million views. The internet must really be dead.

So I heard this animating thing is pretty cool. I should probably, like, try that sometime. idk. https://t.co/nj61W2KwLd